The Flyophobic

My eyes widened as I watched him spread his wings, flit around, fly back & forth creating huge circles in the air. The higher he flew, the tighter my claws clutched to the ground & the faster my heart beats raced in my chest. "What the heck is he thinking?!", I asked myself, "What could be that thing in flying that makes him risk his safety, his OWN LIFE?!!"

As all these thoughts rumbled in my mind, I felt a pat on my wing then a quiet confident voice called my name "Freeko! Hey, Freeko!!". I turned around to find him smiling at me, "When did he go down & come to my side?!",  another thought hit my head. "Hey!!" I chocked the word.

He (jokingly): Man, what's going on with you?!

I know I heard his question but I don't know why I didn't answer; it seemed like someone had put a spell on me or something.

His voice turned more serious when he talked again: Freeko, what's going on?! I'm your friend, man, you can talk to me.

It seemed like the magical spell was broken the thing that made me ask him: "Bondo', how do you feel when you're doing this? I mean, why are you risking your life for such thing?!"

He replied confusedly: What thing?!!

I snapped: FLYING!!!

It seemed like his confusion grew bigger as he asked: So your question is, Is flying worth risking my life for?

I replied quietly: Exactly.

He spun his head in complete disbelief & it seemed like he had hard time talking again: I can't get it, Freeko. We're BIRDS, remember?! Birds. We're designed to fly. We're all about flying & there's no such thing as risk when it comes to flying!!

I snapped: What!! Do you mean you don't fear falling down & dying?! You don't fear hitting against a high building or a big tree?! You don't fear getting drifted away by strong winds or blizzards?! You don't fear for yourself, your safety, your LIFE?!

He gave me a thorough gaze with a calm quiet comforting smile before he answered: No, I do fear for them all but does this have to stop me from flying?! Yes, I may fall down & die but isn't everybody destined to die after all?! And yes, I might hit against a high building or a big tree but also, I can stumble over a stone or a rock while walking here on the ground & get hurt, right?! And yes, I might get drifted away by winds but so might everybody. Don't you know?! Blizzards & winds could get so strong that people, trees, cars & even town could get swept away.

I sighed: What's your point?!

Well, he said, my point is that if you kept thinking about the dangers & the risks that might face you, you would never do what you're originally designed to do. You would never do your part in that world. You would never…Fly!! Then he stopped for a moment before he continued: Freeko, can I ask you something?!

"Sure" I said half-heartedly.

"Have you ever thought about what you could be missing by not flying?!"

"No!" I said under my breath.

He took a deep breath then looked at me "You're missing a lot, man. You're missing the wonderful blue skies, the breath-taking stars, the warmth of the sun, the moon light. You're missing a first-class seat from which you can watch that miraculous world with its unbelievable green fields, its silvery sparkling waters & its golden deserts. I'm not sure if you know about that but humans are willing to pay all they got for that seat that we originally have. You know my friend, all you need to do is defeat yourself & try to fly for once. Then & only then, you'll know what I'm talking about."

He spread his wings & went up high leaving me with my rumbling thoughts.   

Bold like a child

It's wondrous how little kids are so gutsy; it really shows when watching them on swings. They keep swinging back & forth with all the strength they've got fearless of any danger they could be facing like falling off the swing or getting hurt. All they care about is reaching the sky, playing with the bright stars & having some fun with the grayish cotton candy-like clouds.

Watching them in this unbelievable state of boldness makes me think about our very pure nature. If children represent a live example of human pure nature & children are that bold then we're bold by nature!!! Then,… why all that fear?! Why is fear almost the only thing controlling us, and by us I mean adults?! Why are we that afraid all the time?! We're afraid we might not get the job and when we get it, we're afraid we won't be up to the standards. We're afraid we might end up alone & when we have people by our sides, we're afraid they're not the right people. We're afraid we're too fat or too thin, we're too beautiful or too ugly, we're not fashionable or we're too stylish!!! We're always afraid.

As for me, I'm the most scared person on that planet. I'm scared of altitudes, rats, the future & even the present time. I'm scared of not being up to the standards which are by the way MY standards not anybody's. I've even become scared of SWINGS!!!! I'm scared of almost everything & honestly, I don't know if that's because the world has become a scary place or  it's just me losing my pure nature.

All in all, I'm reminding you, whoever you are, & myself that we're naturally designed to be brave & fearless. And may be everybody needs to ask themselves: "Am I bold like a child?!!"

May you all find ultimate happiness =) 

We're related!!

One of the dazzling truths about that life is that everybody living on that big, wide, wonderful planet are related!! Yes, if you think about it, you'll find that despite our differences we all have like a million things in common. For instance, we all breathe, we eat, we drink, we love, we hate, we sleep, we strive for happiness & so many other things that we have in common.
That dazzling truth makes me wonder, if every living human are some related then why all that hatred, envy & despise; why fighting & arguing; why do we do that after all?! Are our differences so much powerful that they conquer our similarities?! Are they so powerful to transform us to those hating envying creatures?! For me, our differences can never be more powerful than our similarities because although our differences are what define us, our similarities are what make us alive in the first place.
I believe in that big time & I hope that someday we will forget about our differences & only remember that we're all related!!

May you all find happiness =)

Meet the Bully

Teenage is one of the most critical stages in anybody’s life. As teenagers, we have a lot to encounter in our lives. We have school, teachers, and friends, finding out who we really are & determining what we wanna do with our lives. In addition to that rumble, some teenagers have a major problem that they have to deal with every day. They have to deal with Bullies!!!!

Bullying is a kind of abuse that anyone can encounter in his daily life. You can find bullies everywhere, at work, university or even across the neighborhood but bullying is more common in schools. So, you wanna know more about bullies. Here you go.

Bully fact # 1: It may be fun but the consequences aren’t funny at all

Bullies claim that they’re doing this just for fun & that they mean no harm. But the question is: “Do they really do no harm?. Unfortunately, yes they do & it’s not a slight harm, it’s a deep bleeding wound. Teenagers who are victims of bullying suffer low self-confidence. They have constant feeling of intimidation. Sometimes, they get into bleak depression that may drive them to taking their own lives!!!! (I know it’s hard to believe but you can search the internet for “Bullycide” & see for yourself that it really happened).

So what do you think now? Is it still funny?!!

Bully fact # 2: Bullying actions are reflection to the bully’s low self-confidence:

Yes guys, this is the truth!! When somebody spends his/ her time doing nothing but picking on others or mocking them, it’s because they want to drift people’s attention away from them or because they want people to believe they’re strong & highly confident of themselves. And why is that? It’s simply because they fear that if people knew they’re weak or if people had a chance, they would mock them and that’s so hard for them to take.

Bully fact # 3: they’re bullying you because they’re jealous from you:

If you thought about it for a while, you would find that it’s true. They’re doing this cause they know you’re better than they are. They think they can’t be like you or they don’t even wanna give it a shot so what they do? Bully you, destroy your self-confidence. And then………you’re down.

Now, you’ve known the truth about that bullying thing. But before you turn the page, I have something to tell you:

If you are a bully: “I know that deep inside, you’re so good to harm others, to be a bully. Try to discover the friendly-you & bring him/ her to life again. See people from inside. Be yourself & let others be themselves.  ”

If you’re being bullied: “You have to believe in yourself, love yourself as it is & never try to change it because people want you to. Give yourself a break & stop blaming yourself for everything you do even if it was dumb. Believe me, sometimes dumb things are what make life cool ;):)  ”

My super mom

I have never been the kind of person who show how they feel in words. Well, I know that's a shortcoming of mine because when you love someone, you gotta tell them that you do; that makes them happy after all. But though it all, I never really told someone that I love him/her except for this one person. This one person who I always tell "I love you" everyday; actually I'm telling her that every morning & every evening. And if you're thinking that she must be so special to me, you're right because she really is.; she has to be, She's my MOM :D:D But don't you think that my mom is an ordinary mom or that our relationship is an ordinary mother-daughter relationship. No, it's not, it's not ordinary at all. I may be a little bit biased when I say that but I think that it's one-of-a-kind mother-daughter relationship. You wanna know why? Well, let's start from the beginning.
1-Mom has always been there for me. She supported me even when almost everybody I know called me crazy & a potential failure. She believed in me even when I lost any belief in myself.
2-She taught me almost everything I know in this life. She taught me to respect others, to love others & to be good to others regardless of how bad they were to me. She taught me the meaning of how to be strong & how to rise again whenever I fall.
3-She took all my craziness, stubbornness & sometimes my idiocy with much love & acceptance.
4-She's always been my guiding beacon all the way. She guided me without judging or irritation. She never gets sick of me making mistakes then coming back to her asking for help or for advice.
5-She knows what I want before I even open my mouth to speak it. And she finds her ultimate happiness in getting us what my sister & I want (but we're not spoiled kids FYI  :D:D).
6-I see her as a never-ending source of forgiveness. Sometimes, I believe that my job in that life is to mess things up & her job is to forgive me.
7-If you ask me who's your best friend, the answer will definitely be "My mom". She's always been a perfect  BFF & a cool one too :D:D She always listened to me & never made fun of me. Not only that,She also did her best to be a part of everything in my life not in an intruding way but in a contributing way. She was the secret ingredient behind my love for my four favorite things in life; cinema, music, reading & desserts :D:D She was the first to take me to the movies, she introduced me to many of my now-favorite singers & bands, she encouraged me to read & for that dessert thing, mom is the best when it comes to making desserts, her desserts are just irresistible.So, here are some reasons why I consider my mom to be the best mom in the whole world, actually I think of her as the best person in the whole world. And today, I'm writing that for her as a "Happy Mother's day" gift. So, I just going tell her one final thing: "MOM, I love you. You're always gonna be my hero "

The Gennie, Rapunzel & me

About an hour ago, I've read some line on Twitter stating that within everybody of us, there's a Disney character. Well, that line brought back to my mind a question that I've always asked every time I watch a Disney movie or let's say an animation movie.If I were a Disney character or a cartoon character, who would I wanna be? Personally, I prefer to be that crazy, hilarious, messy, annoying in a funny way friend. Like the Gennie in Aladdin, Wazowski  in Monsters inc or even Sid in Ice Age!!! OK, I admit that this's not what you expected because as a sweet gentle young lady, I'm expected to dream of being a fair princess like Cinderella, Snow White or even Sleeping Beauty :D:D. Honestly, I've never dreamed of being such a fair princess & I don't have a clue about why I never did. But if I was to choose a fair princess to be, I would choose Rapunzel in the 2010-animated feature "Tangled", Why?! Because in that feature, Rapunzel is funny, smart, strong or pretending to be strong & on top of all this, she's got a dream & she's pursuing it, is there anything better than that?! Maybe but for me, having a dream, pursuing it yet enjoying your life, your tiny successes or failures & these ups & downs facing you on that tiring yet rewarding journey is something that everybody needs. And for me, the thing that all the dreamers out there are missing in order to have a happy life is that "enjoying" thing. Yes, we get so much involved in that reaching-our-dream journey that we forget to enjoy the beauty of it. We forget to enjoy the many moments of happiness & success. We forget to enjoy the laughs & the learning moments even if they're tiring or painful & the moments of appreciation. We forget to enjoy & we end up trapped in the bleak "what if" zone. So, I made a decision. From now on, I'm gonna try to enjoy as much moments of my life as I can, I'm gonna try to keep all the good moments in my mind & soul because they're gonna be there for me when tough moments descend. Honestly, I don't know if I'm gonna make it or not but I'm gonna give it a shot.


May you all find happiness=)

Crazy Diary :D:D

Have you ever had an imaginary friend when you were little? You did, right? What was his name? Zizo? Mohamed? Lolo? Barbie if you're a girl? Personally, I can't remember my imaginary friend's name. Actually, I can't remember if I had an imaginary friend or not :D:D. But still, I can tell you something about imaginary friends & me; I still have some imaginary friends!!! Yeah, I'm a twenty-year-old-to-be & I still have imaginary friends..with a little difference of course. For instance, I don't talk to myself out loud pretending to be talking to them , it doesn't mean that I'm not talking to myself out loud, & I don't offer them any of my stuff like we used to offer them our toys & candy. It's just that I conjure them up in my mind, conjure up conversations going on between us, happy moments, tough moments, sad moments, fight moments & any other thing that can go on between friends.And you know what the funniest thing is? I picture these moments as if we were in a movie. I picture the location, the soundtrack even the camera angles. Do you believe it? Because I can't believe it myself. Oh my God!!! I feel like..like a crazy person.

Oh wait, I'm a crazy person & everybody knows that already:D:D

You know, whether this was crazy or not, I would go on with my imaginations because they make me happy :)

May you all find happiness :)