It’s exactly 23 days to my long-awaited, highly-anticipated
graduation project final presentation. And to anybody with a minimal level of
common sense, these days should be the most emotionally-overwhelming days of my
life; makes sense, huh?!
Well, here’s a newsflash… My senior year is finally counting down, “hopefully
Insha’Allah!!”, and I blandly feel nothing WHATSOEVER!! Seriously!! I’m not
sure if anybody is following the series in the first place but if you take a
look at Episode 1, you’ll find out it was basically about me getting so
emotional on my very first Senior-Year day. And now that everything is
eventually wrapping up, I walk down the same hallways I've been strolling for
almost five years emotionlessly, thoughtlessly & most probably… soullessly!!
Contemplating this “me turning into a soulless zombie” thing, I
managed to develop a couple of theories that might subtly help explain this
emotional paralysis I’m experiencing regarding this graduation thing.
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Theory #1: Maybe it’s all
because my final university year has so worn me out I can’t wait to be done
with it; the thing that has to totally strip me off any sort of nostalgic or
even joyful feelings.
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Theory #2: Maybe it’s all
because I’m not “practically” done with my senior year. Yes, the final exams
are over & all but still, I've got this huge “Operation Graduation Project”
ahead of me. And that’s why I can’t feel I’m gonna miss anything about uni
cause simply, it’s not over yet.
P.S. If that theory proves to be the right one,
this paralysis will burst into blazing emotional flames on the awaited
presentation day. (I’ll keep you, whoever you are, updated on that!!)
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Theory #3: Maybe it’s all
because I’m not an emotional kind of person in the first place, I mean, in what
universe have I ever been emotional or even sentimental!! Of course I’ve had my
fair share of sentimental moments and emotional turmoil but that has never been
the norm so why I’m so panicking over this!!
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Theory #4: Maybe, just, maybe it’s
all temporary & I’ll soon enough get my fair share of that nostalgic,
post-senior-year drama. And if such theory holds… I terribly apologize for
bothering you with my nonsensical theories!! J
May every Senior enjoy what’s left of their Senior Year =)
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