Episode 4...The Countdown Theories!!

It’s exactly 23 days to my long-awaited, highly-anticipated graduation project final presentation. And to anybody with a minimal level of common sense, these days should be the most emotionally-overwhelming days of my life; makes sense, huh?!

Well, here’s a newsflash… My senior year is finally counting down, “hopefully Insha’Allah!!”, and I blandly feel nothing WHATSOEVER!! Seriously!! I’m not sure if anybody is following the series in the first place but if you take a look at Episode 1, you’ll find out it was basically about me getting so emotional on my very first Senior-Year day. And now that everything is eventually wrapping up, I walk down the same hallways I've been strolling for almost five years emotionlessly, thoughtlessly & most probably… soullessly!!

Contemplating this “me turning into a soulless zombie” thing, I managed to develop a couple of theories that might subtly help explain this emotional paralysis I’m experiencing regarding this graduation thing.

-     Theory #1: Maybe it’s all because my final university year has so worn me out I can’t wait to be done with it; the thing that has to totally strip me off any sort of nostalgic or even joyful feelings.

-     Theory #2: Maybe it’s all because I’m not “practically” done with my senior year. Yes, the final exams are over & all but still, I've got this huge “Operation Graduation Project” ahead of me. And that’s why I can’t feel I’m gonna miss anything about uni cause simply, it’s not over yet.

P.S. If that theory proves to be the right one, this paralysis will burst into blazing emotional flames on the awaited presentation day. (I’ll keep you, whoever you are, updated on that!!)

-     Theory #3: Maybe it’s all because I’m not an emotional kind of person in the first place, I mean, in what universe have I ever been emotional or even sentimental!! Of course I’ve had my fair share of sentimental moments and emotional turmoil but that has never been the norm so why I’m so panicking over this!!

-     Theory #4: Maybe, just, maybe it’s all temporary & I’ll soon enough get my fair share of that nostalgic, post-senior-year drama. And if such theory holds… I terribly apologize for bothering you with my nonsensical theories!! J

May every Senior enjoy what’s left of their Senior Year =)

Episode #3...In Class!!

Have you ever experienced a boring class?! A lot, huh?!

Well, I have to admit that during my four-and-a-half-year journey in uni, I’ve been in more boring classes than interesting or even normal ones. And since this journey is soon coming to an end (hopefully!!), I’ve decided to take up the endeavor of contemplating a boring unbearably energy-draining class.

As for the professor, he’s monotonic, slow-paced & he tirelessly continues to speak some enigmatic geeky barely understandable barely audible terms.

As for my fellow senior veterans, well, I can gladly say that almost everyone has set foot on La La Land their own way; some have started casual chit-chats with their neighbors, others have opened their books starting an avid reading session & as for the majority, well, they’re daydreaming!! (Oh, there’s one guy over there that’s actually dreaming; YES, in his sleep!!)

“Oh I almost forgot… everybody, including me, fakes absolute focus with a subtle series of nods as the professor turns his head & throws a look at the surrounding vicinity.”

And as for me… Well, I used to be one of the daydreamers but today I’ve decided to switch course. Today I’ve decided to contemplate & write.

But here’s the most basic question… Is it our fault, as students I mean, that we lose focus letting our minds wander off in such boring barely beneficial classes?! Or is it our professors’ fault for they don’t raise any interest at our end in what they’re explaining in class?!

If you want to hear my humble opinion, I think it’s everybody’s fault. It’s the professors’ fault for it never occurred to them  to put themselves in our shoes & think of what can really raise our interest so we can be avid listeners in class & most importantly avid learners after class.

It’s the university’s administration’s fault for they have never thought of setting an effective transparent filtering & selection process of potentially talented personnel who can do well as professors, as teachers and above all as mentors.

It’s our fault cause every day we knuckle under to the status quo desperately hoping that someone else would come & change it one of those days.

And last but not least, it’s my fault cause I’m writing this in class!!

May every senior enjoy their classes!! =)