Senior year has officially started!! And like any other senior student,
I got showered with swirls of memories as I tapped my first steps into uni. Before
that, I got hit with a swirl of disbelief: “I’m a SENIOR!!Me?! I’ve really
spent complete four years in this place?!” I shook my head in disbelief as I
strolled down the hallways. And in a heartbeat , the past four years started to
flashback!!
I can clearly recall my first day at uni, it’s like it was just
yesterday. It was a Ramadan day. Fasting was wearing me out let alone how
unconfident & insecure I felt. Yet, I tried my best at faking confidence; I
walked through the iron gates with my newly-bought sunglasses on. I think I wore
a white shirt & a red cardigan with a pair of blue jeans; I also remember I
piled my hair into a bun, but that doesn’t matter after all.J Anyways, I walked in with a
fake confident look on my face & started scanning the place, typically me!!
I can’t recall exact images but I can say I saw a whole life in there; I saw
people laughing out with their friends, catching up on what they missed during
the long summer. I saw other people running or hopping or jogging or whatever
you wanna call it who were hurrying to the lecture halls. And of course, there
were those bemused goofs, AKA freshmen, who were spinning around in circles not
knowing where to go. But the most important thing to remember was how
optimistic I was that day, you can say “Little miss sunshine” would have been
very descriptive!! I had those aspirations of not only becoming a great local engineer
but also a great well-known scientist. I actually visualized myself stepping on
the stage of the Stockholm concert hall to receive my Nobel Prize. With a
dreaming mind, an aspiring soul & a heart full of hope, the journey kicked-off…
In fact, it was a hell of a journey, in an excruciating way &
yet I can’t say it ripped me of my dreams. Of course, my dreams have undergone
a few changes in some sort of a realistic way but still, that “Change the world”
dream is still is chasing me, the thing that I’m really grateful for.
My mind declared an end to
the joyful flashback it started a minute ago as I reached the door of the
lecture hall. I took a deep breath, pulled myself together & with a
doubtful heart, a surviving soul & a mind full of memories, I stepped into
my first senior-year tutorial!!
